36 and two days.

two days past 36 weeks. have i mentioned that i am ready for this baby to be in my arms opposed to my belly. i know i am only 36 weeks, the baby still needs to cook, but if he could come tomorrow with no complications i would LOVE it. i went to the dr yesterday and was hoping for just a little progress, NOTHING. not dilated or effaced at all. i am depressed about it. its not even that i need him to come early (not that i would be mad if he did!), i just wanted to be something. ya know?

so @ 35-36 weeks.

i can't sleep, you guys. i am grumpy and i just want to get comfortable for a few hours.

it seems that this numb, tingly, achy right arm of mine is only getting worse. it now bothers me all night and all day.

this boy gets the hiccups quite a bit. i feel bad for him, i don't love the hiccups. but i do love feeling him inside me.

i gained 3 more lbs this week. and i can feel it. and see it!!

bending over feels like i am cutting off my air supply and/or someone punching me in the stomach.

i feel swollen.

i am SO tired. i can't make it a whole day without laying down and sleeping for at least 20 minutes.

i really love feeling him move. i can tell he is running out of room.

i think i noticed a stretch mark. maybe a couple.

i feel like i have nothing ready, like a hospital bag or anything washed. a part of me feels panicky about it and the other part doesn't want a packed bag laying around for the next 4 weeks only to be over prepared.

still wanting to go with no epidural... no new thoughts. just have to see how it goes.

my app says he is the size of a watermelon and is probably around 6.5 lbs.

i kinda think i love the name beckett lately. i think we will spell it bekitt. don't hold me to that, but for today that is his name!

love him and am dying to see what he looks like.


i had two more showers.
thanks to angie who made a delicious lunch and offered up her cute house. she is such a great sil. i am glad to have her in my life and even more glad that she is a part of my family! love her.  thanks to those that came. we got some great things!

and to amy who also had a yummy lunch and invited everyone to her cute house! i suck at taking pictures, and didn't take any at amy's. :( however it was very fun visiting with friends, my mama and mern. i am very grateful for a friend like aim, she is always so willing to do nice things for me! no one knows what i would do without her!

and my hunky hubby ran another marathon. i am so proud of him. what a great accomplishment! look at that bod!

happy birthday to my best guy!

today jordan turns 28. remember how i met him when he was 14? wow, i still remember the first few times i saw him. one of those times my mom gave him a ride home in her convertible, the top was down, he sat on the back with a friend of ours and sang some rap song all the way to his house. boy, did i have a crush on him! over the next few years we kissed a few times, but  HE didn't want anything serious. i really liked him. he may or may not have started dated a friend of mine and i may or may not have been really upset over it, they didn't work out, he said he was sorry and i couldn't help but still really like him. there was always something about jordan that i found special. so a few months before i turned 17 we started dating, being bf/gf, ya know? always in the back of my mind i knew he would be leaving on his mission soon and i didn't know what would happen. i couldn't help myself from really falling for him. i remember in july, the 10th of 2003 to be exact, i knew that i loved him. i couldn't tell him though, he was leaving in just 2 short months. we had so much fun that summer. we hung out pretty much everyday. we went to concerts and murrray pool. and then  on a hot summer night (August 26th 2003) we were driving to a friends bday party in that same convertible, in the middle of the road, he slammed on the breaks, looked over at me and said "you know i love you, right?" best night. i remember it like it was yesterday. then he left, lots more years went by and look at us now! just a few nights ago we were talking about those days, if we ever thought we would be here today. and the answer is no. but i am so glad that we are. i love him, i love the memories we have. i love that i have known him since i was a kid. he is so so special to me! i couldn't ask for someone better. he loves me and takes care of me. he supports me in all my adventures. he encourages me to be better. cheers me up when i am down. makes me laugh so hard, because he really is quite funny. when i look into his eyes i see my future. he is going to be the best dad. i can't wait to see him hold this little boy for the first time. i hope jordan knows how much i appreciate him, i have a hard time showing it most of the time. today, for his birthday i hope he feels as special as he is. i will love him FOREVER.

34 and 1/2 weeks!

you guys i am 34 and a 1/2 weeks, like almost 35. i say and a 1/2 because in my mind 6 weeks seems like forever but 5 and 1/2 sounds SO much better! i gave up on my weekly updates because it was making me depressed looking  back and being further along then the last post. i also found the last few weeks to be really hard. and i am not just talking about being pregnant. (i am sure that has had me a tad bit more emotional)  life has been hard the last few weeks. it seems like there have been multiple things/people  who have let me down, people that were not suppose to do that, ya know? not going into details... i am just glad those few days are over. and this babe is getting closer to being here in my arms because i am ready to meet him!

@31- 34 weeks.

it seems this boy is getting BIG and strong! like no more room in my belly and sometimes those little jabs hurt.
the doc says he is head down and more then likely won't turn at this point.
gained only 1 lb. in the last 4 weeks. which is good.
my feet were swollen last night for the first time.
i like being able to poke at my belly and feeling my baby. its pretty crazy.
my poor poor belly button looks miserable.
no stretch marks yet.
i can rarely wear both my ring and wedding band any more.
i feel like i could cry about most everything lately.
i have major anxiety when the babe is taking it easy. i want him to move around at all times, never stop. not even to sleep. :)
it is HOT! holy cow. i feel like i've never felt it so hot. i am NEVER cold. rarely am i feeling like its a good temp inside or out. and then i went to las vegas (more on that later) but we couldn't even get out of the pool it was so hot.
i have been having major heart burn. i feel like acid is running up and down my throat.
night time just seem to get harder and harder. i am so tired but can't sleep. either a: my arms asleep. b: both my feet are asleep or c: i can't stop thinking about the baby moving.
i have been feeling super tired lately, i think its a mixture of not sleeping and growing this little guy.
my tummy feels like its next to my heart and has little room for food. i get stuffed so fast, and i barely eat anything.
ammie finished up his bedding and i am in LOVE!
the name game is just that a game. we switch names every other day. still the top of our list remains the same.


*we had our first baby shower and i am so grateful for all who came and supported us and this little guy. i have a few more showers coming up and i am super excited! maybe ill remember to take a few pictures.


*here i am the day before i turned 34 weeks!

 *my dad had a birthday. i love him. and couldn't ask for a better daddy! can't wait to see him with his grand baby, who he likes to call kobe jordan. :)


* me and j went to vegas. i am so glad e made it possible for us to spend some time together alone. we didn't really do anything and i think that is what made it so special for me. it was so nice to just be with jordan, no distractions. we didn't have to work. or take care of the dogs. or clean. or water the lawn. it was seriously so nice. again, i suck at taking pictures. but this is part of our room. our room was huge. i love bath tubs and this one was so nice and big!

* crafts. we haven't been doing our monthly girl's night craft. :( but i have been doing some on my own. here is my latest. i made the flags on stands, the star banner and put together the rest! i wish the picture of the window was a little bit better, it looks better in person!

* we went to pool party on the 4th. super fun. we were so tired after we didn't do anything but eat and lay around. perfect 4th if you ask me. i am NOT a firework person.

* and my flowers. i love my flowers. i wish i could have pretty gardens year round. maybe we should move to california.

*look at this little guy, he is getting so big. lately he has made my days full of fun. he will be 2 in just a few weeks. crazy how big he is getting.

* we went to a friends concert. super fun. glad there were places for me to sit. (this was the night my feet got a tad swollen. this pic is awesome, huh? jordan took it! 

*and last but not least. our dogs are still alive. my patients runs thin most days with just about everyone/thing including them. but they are super cute and i love them. they just need a pill to calm them sometimes. 

30

i decided to skip week 29. it really was the same as the last few weeks! i am very excited to be 30 weeks. only 10 more to go. it seems like saying 10 weeks means its like going to happen any second. like in my head counting down from 10 is cake.  but lets be honest 10 weeks is still 2 and 1/2 months. wow. thats not any second. hopefully july will go by fast since we have tons planned. and i am sure august will go by super slow and be way hot.

** i just wanted to inform you that these are always a week behind. like i am almost 31 weeks but i like to update with what happened during the week i am writing about. ya know? **

@ 30 weeks.



baby boy is moving and grooving lately. i love it!

j called him matix this week. last week it was jameson. the week before j called him beckett. so we still aren't sure. my favorite for today is jameson. ahh... so hard.

i started to get heart burn.

my throat thing is back with a vengeance, maybe has something to do with the heart burn.

i feel like his little legs are getting longer and can now feel them up in my ribs.

his room is almost complete. :) love love love how it is coming along.

when he kicks or hits or pokes his bum out, its like you can feel that part of him and then he moves it. amazing!


fathers day was this week. and can i just say i have the best fathers in my life. i love my dad, f.i.l and i just know that jordan is going to be such a good daddy.

its been HOT! i think maybe it could cool down a tad and i would be happy happy! oh and did i mention that our a/c stopped working last night? as if i needed something else to interfere with me sleeping. i am pretty sure jordan was hating his life too. and the poor dogs were panting like crazy. the house was hotter inside then out. neat!

while we are talking about sleeping, i am not sure my body knows how to relax. i seriously cannot get comfortable, its one thing or the next.

last night i am pretty sure he got the hiccups for the first time. (that i noticed! maybe he has had them before

my mind has been racing lately, i can't stop and just take a second.

this boy is now over 3 lbs. so says the app on my phone.

i am measuring big. not that this means really anything.

i only gained 1 lb. in 2 weeks!

is it august yet?

28

pregnancy questionnaire.


how far along? although i am 29 weeks today, this is a post about being 28 weeks.
weight gain: 20.
maternity clothes? i have only bought one pair of maternity pants and never wear them because they don't have the big belly band. so thanks to amy i now have a few pairs of really comfy maternity pants. which are only worn occasionally. i usually just wear my XL sweat pants like i did before i was prego. and i have bought some maxi skirts which i love wearing they are so so comfy. shirts, i just wear what i have.
stretch marks? i have these red veins lookin things around my belly but i am not sure that they are stretch marks.
sleep? what is that? i am not joking last night was the worst night ever! i think i got one hour of sleep the whole night. no matter what position i was in my right arm fell asleep, so annoying. and have i mentioned that i really need some sleep?
best moment of the week: also last night. this boy was kicking like crazy and just decided to leave his leg extended and when i felt my belly i could feel his foot. insta smile! i love him so much already.. sleep or no sleep!
miss anything? i really miss running outside in the sun and working out. hopefully after this baby is out i will remember i said this and lose that before mentioned 20 lbs quickly! ( + some)
food cravings? anything that i don't have to cook. i never really enjoyed cooking but now i would almost rather not eat then have to cook something. oh, and i love sweet things. i.e. eggos, whipped cream, candy, cake.. i have serious sweet tooth which is weird because before i was pregnant i rarely craved sweet things.
anything making you sick? i am so glad the majority of the sickness has come and gone!
gender: boy. this week jordan called the baby beckitt. last week it was jameson. ha!!
labor signs: none. hopefully it stays that way for a few more weeks!
belly button? still in. its like a gaping hole it has stretched so much. i am curious to see if it pops out.
wedding ring? still on. getting tighter!
happy or moody most of  the time? moody. sorry guys.
looking forward to? seeing what this boy looks like! holding him. laying on my tummy to sleep. not worrying about less movement. (i probably should stop looking at the internet. everywhere i turn there is a sad story about a mom losing her babe.) naming this guy. smelling him! i think one thing i am so excited for is seeing jordan with him. can't wait!

week 27

@ 27 weeks

drank the sugar drink to test for gestational diabetes. the drink really was NOT bad, why was i so nervous. i really thought it was going to be the worst thing to ever go in my mouth. honestly, it actually tasted fine. really sugary. i would never order that to drink, but not bad. now hopefully i won't have g.d.

@ the dr. i found out i gained another 6 lbs. maybe the eggos before bed every night should stop. :)
i measured 29 instead of 28. maybe that has something to do with gaining 6 lbs. in 4 weeks.

and what is most exciting about these 6 lbs is i now weigh as much as jordan. great!

still unsure about the natural thing.

i seriously CANNOT sleep. and i NEED some sleep. its not even that i feel like my belly is in the way. (other than i prefer to sleep on my belly)  i feel like my neck is going to break. a little dramatic i know but haven't we all learned that i am dramatic about everything. but really my neck can't seem to get comfy. oh and then there are those darn charley horses. do you think they could come sometime other then when i am trying to sleep.

i have mood swings.

i am still grumpy.

i have no patience.

i still love feeling baby boy move. the other night jordan felt him move like crazy. probably a highlight of the week.

we had a bbq for memorial day at our house with family and it was fun getting together! we ate ALL of the food. like scavengers.

i love seeing baby remmi. she makes me even more excited to meet our little man.

i haven't gotten any stretch marks... yet. which is great.

can it be august? :)

this week the name is jamisen... not a done deal. so don't call him that!!

although sometimes i do complain, i am very grateful to be pregnant. its a very constant reminder when i hear about friends/ family so often, still trying.

love this baby boy so much!

25 & 26

25 & 26

well.. behind as usual. i hate to say it but these last 2 weeks have flown by! sometimes when i think that it has already been a week and i need to blog again, it seems like i just did. at the same time i am still just 27 weeks pregnant (tomorrow) and i just want to be closer to 40.

@ 25 weeks

photo of me and my growing belly.

markus and mern came to town. markus has to leave soon but mern will be here the rest of the summer. its been fun being all together again.

i have been having super bad pains in my back and lower abdomen and it hasn't been fun.

i didn't vomit once!!

jordan started playing softball with friends, and i love going ever tuesday. he looks extra hot on the field!

mother's day happened! it was great, jordan even got me a present! 2 plants to go in my garden and a shepards hook. we spent the night at ammie's for dinner, j's parent's house for a quick visit followed by a movie with my family. we saw the lucky one, and i hated it. sorry. i felt like there was no point. i could have told you what happened in the movie by just watching the previews.

we went bowling, i fell. really nice.

my dogs drive me bonkers sometimes. but then i wake up to this. and i love them all over again. this is knox, our only giant dog we will ever own, and he loves to cuddle jordan every morning.

@ 26 weeks.

no barfing again!!

pain has gone away slightly which is always nice.

i CANNOT sleep. help me.

i get the worst charley horses in my calfs at night. wow.

miss remmi made her grand appearance. love her already. she makes me want this baby boy here even more.

the sports mall pool opened so matthew and i went. he loved it. so did i. the rain can just go back where it came from today.

my sil alex had a bday.

the babe moved more and more this week. he is finding places to kick that don't feel so great.

this week he weighs 2.2 lbs.

i have major anxiety.

we set up the crib. pics to come when room is complete.

our dryer broke. so we bought a new washer and dryer, LOVE!

and we bought a chair for the babies room, LOVE as well!

while sitting in all 200 chairs at rc willey jordan came across this beauty! yes, it stands you up. most likely this was one of the only chairs "made in america".

i am very ready for may to be over, it has not impressed!

until next time. heres to being 27 weeks tomorrow! 

(don't mind that these pictures are super grainy.)