update on baby #2

here is an update on the babe in my belly.

we went back for another ultrasound. i was just shy of 23 weeks. the baby's ventricle in his brain has gotten bigger. i was in shock. for the whole 2 weeks between ultrasounds i really thought everything was going to be fine. our appointment went something like this... they called us back 40 minutes after our scheduled time.  ultrasound tech and student had to do the whole ultrasound over again and take new measurements of the baby. the tech said "oh, it looks good" right around the time she was looking at the baby's brain. the dr came in. talked to us for 2 hours about what could be causing the enlarged ventricle. i tried so so hard not to have a meltdown. and failed. the dr then did the ultrasound all over again. we discussed what tests to do. went upstairs to do testing. after what seemed like all day, we have no for sure answers. now we wait 5-10 business days.

what could be causing the enlarged ventricle.
-NOTHING, the left side could just be bigger and it will heal itself.
-the ventricle may just not be draining properly. if it continues to get bigger they would need to place a shunt in his brain to drain the fluid. the surgery would take place in utero. the shunt would then stay in the rest of his life, maybe needing to be replaced as he grows maybe not.
-an INFECTION. the baby may have gotten an infection that i had. the infection being one that i didn't even know about. the infection could have been in my body before i was pregnant or i could have had it at any time while i have been preg.
-a SPINAL DEFECT. i don't have a ton of info on what this could be. when they look at his spine in the ultrasound, it looks good.
-TRISOMY 21 aka down syndrome.
-TRISOMY 13: severe intellectual disability and physical abnormalities. most babies don't make it past their 1st birthday.
-TRISOMY 18: due to the presence of several life threatening medical issues most babies die before birth or within their first month. 10% make it past their first birthday, these children usually have severe intellectual disability.

the tests we took will tell us IF he has an infection or IF he has a chromosomal disorder (13-21). the tests will not tell us which chromosomal disorder he has if that test comes back positive. if positive we would have to do an amnio to find out exact disorder. i am unsure what the treatment is if he has an infection.  regardless of what the tests show he may or may not need a shunt. depends solely on how big the ventricle gets. if i understood correctly there is not a test to show a spinal defect.

i have been a pretty big mess since i was told what the possibilities are. i am hoping to get the results back this week. i can't believe how drastic the causes are, from nothing to something so serious. i am ready for some answers, as you can imagine.

Beckett turns 2!

my baby is quickly turning into a big boy. i love it but at the same time i hate it.

he learns something new everyday. i love hearing him say new things or put more and more words together. he has quite the personality, he's even a bit naughty sometimes. he knows what he wants and how to get it.

we had a little party for him the weekend before his birthday. it was circus theme, i spent tons of time and money creating the perfect out door party... and it RAINED. i always thought his august birthday would be so fun because we could always do something outside, well its rained two years in a row.
his party was still a success and of course he was spoiled rotten!

 i didn't take the best pictures. i wish i would have gotten some better ones of our family and friends. we were so lucky to even have markus and jordi and mariah and ty here for the weekend! and i could have sworn i took some of the decor/games/treats. oh well, it was a blast celebrating by boy!


on his actual birthday we went to a few of his favorite places. too bad jordan was in az. most of the day it was just me and b. we went to lunch and the farm. he loves the farm. he can just run wild, just what he likes. after the farm and a nap we met up with grandma and grandpa duran to go to the bees game and dinner. my child has an obsession for baseball! (if you didn't know!) he LOVED the baseball game. we sat in our seats most of the game and then headed to the grass to play catch and roll down the hill!

 b feeding the ducks at the farm. seriously, unreal 

how they come up to you and basically eat out of your hand. 

it scared me so much i told him he could only 

do it with grandma.

 

 happiest 2nd birthday becks. i love you so much and am so lucky i get to be your mom!

 

baby boy #2

i know i say this all the time... but i wish i was better at keeping this thing up to date.


i have yet to write anything about baby #2 and i am 21 weeks prego!
here is the breakdown.

-we decided we would start trying when Beckett turned 1.

-i just assumed we would get pregnant the first month we tried because that is how it worked with b.

-after about 6 months of negative tests i was bummed. i was over it.

-that 7th and 8th month i stopped counting the days. i stopped stressing.

- AND well month 8th the test was POSITIVE!

looking back i know it all happened for a reason. i didn't know it then but quickly realized after finally seeing that positive test!

-baby boy #2 made me very sick. (sicker than with beckett)

(this pic was at 12 weeks. we couldn't hear a heartbeat on the doppler 

so we got another ultrasound)

-i barfed for 17 straight weeks. even on meds. sometimes i was so sick i couldn't even get out of bed.

-i still have some sickness in the morning but nothing to complain about.

-i am still taking my unisom/vitamin b6 mix. i've tried and tried to eliminate it but i can't. it really helps!

-i am so tired. like at 1 i really need a nap!

-we found out he was a boy at 14 weeks. i knew it, and i am pretty sure jordan knew too!

-i started to feel him around 19 weeks, but just a little. it felt like he was facing a different way.

-at 21 weeks we went in for our big ultrasound. it was confirmed he was a boy. it was so so fun seeing him move around. it was confirmed that he is facing my back and that is why i feel him differently. we also found out he as a enlarged ventricle in his brain. i hated hearing something could be wrong. we find out more info next week. everything could be totally fine.

-we have not decided on a name. probably won't until we see him. here is what we like right now. i need no feed back. not very many people liked the name beckett and it kind of hurt my feelings. but when i saw b i knew that was his name. (we went into delivery with 2 we really liked.) so i like...
Jakoby (i know NO one likes it. i don't care what you think!) jameson (the other name we loved when preg with b.) bryant (jordan says no way!) camden (too popular? i am thinking yes!)

 

 (this is b looking at the ultrasound pictures)

-i am not really sure what b thinks. i tell him he is going to have a brother but he keeps telling me its not a brother its a baby. ha! i tell him there is a baby in my belly and he looks at me like "yeah, ok mom!" i know it will be an adjustment but he will be a great big brother. he really loves babies.