Beckett Luis Bowden
love him more then words can describe.
birth story and more to come ASAP. for now i am going to love on this guy all day and night.
BORN: August 27th @ 3:02 pm.
8lbs. 6 oz.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
my sweetest baby boy.
guess who decided to join his daddy and mama?
Beckett Luis Bowden
love him more then words can describe.
birth story and more to come ASAP. for now i am going to love on this guy all day and night.
BORN: August 27th @ 3:02 pm.
8lbs. 6 oz.
Beckett Luis Bowden
love him more then words can describe.
birth story and more to come ASAP. for now i am going to love on this guy all day and night.
BORN: August 27th @ 3:02 pm.
8lbs. 6 oz.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
40
today i am 40 weeks pregnant. the app on my phone that has had a count down on it says "TODAY IS THE DAY!" its funny because i've been looking forward to this day for a really long time. most of the time when you look forward to a certain date, you get the "prize" on that day. like when you have been waiting for a vacation, someone to return home. ya know? well, in the back of my mind i've known that a due date doesn't mean i would have the baby that exact day but i never realized how much i needed it to be the day. yeah, he could have come anytime before today, today is here and he isn't. and he is most likely not coming today.
i am 40 weeks pregnant... and still not dilated. does this happen? i want to be holding my baby. i am a little sick of being prego. im big, and hot. i feel anxious about everything. i am really tired. obviously i am throwing myself a little pity party today, sorry. j is so positive, he always reminds me how lucky we were to get pregnant so fast and how lucky we are to have had a healthy pregnancy. i really do agree. i really just want to have a baby, today.
on monday, when i found out i was still not dilated, my dr. said he couldn't induce me until i was at least a 2. he said, didn't recommend, that i could have a c-section anytime. well, i don't want a c-section. now i find myself considering it. what if my body just doesn't dilate, ever? my dr. said i could have a cervix softener at 41 and 1/2 weeks. i feel like 41 and 1/2 weeks is like a year away. by that time my baby might weigh 10 lbs. how is that going to work, no epidural and a 10 lb. babe? nope, not happening. most likely i would still need a c-section. AND what if the cervix softener doesn't work? ahh.. i am driving myself nuts.
monday is my next appointment. i NEED my baby to be here by then. or at least some progress. pray for me! has anyone ever not been dilated by this point? i need some advice. thanks.
for now im off to mow the lawn and clean my house. if that doesn't help i'll be at the track running stairs! :)
i am 40 weeks pregnant... and still not dilated. does this happen? i want to be holding my baby. i am a little sick of being prego. im big, and hot. i feel anxious about everything. i am really tired. obviously i am throwing myself a little pity party today, sorry. j is so positive, he always reminds me how lucky we were to get pregnant so fast and how lucky we are to have had a healthy pregnancy. i really do agree. i really just want to have a baby, today.
on monday, when i found out i was still not dilated, my dr. said he couldn't induce me until i was at least a 2. he said, didn't recommend, that i could have a c-section anytime. well, i don't want a c-section. now i find myself considering it. what if my body just doesn't dilate, ever? my dr. said i could have a cervix softener at 41 and 1/2 weeks. i feel like 41 and 1/2 weeks is like a year away. by that time my baby might weigh 10 lbs. how is that going to work, no epidural and a 10 lb. babe? nope, not happening. most likely i would still need a c-section. AND what if the cervix softener doesn't work? ahh.. i am driving myself nuts.
monday is my next appointment. i NEED my baby to be here by then. or at least some progress. pray for me! has anyone ever not been dilated by this point? i need some advice. thanks.
for now im off to mow the lawn and clean my house. if that doesn't help i'll be at the track running stairs! :)
Friday, August 17, 2012
39 weeks and one day.
yesterday i turned 39 weeks! i cleaned my whole house, did the laundry- including the bedding, mowed the lawn and washed all three dogs. i am READY for this boy to come! his room is ready, his bag is packed. his aunt mern is leaving sunday, she needs to meet him first. please, oh please come TONIGHT! really tonight would be really great!
@ 37, 38 and 39
the last few weeks have seemed longer then all 39 combined. i am seriously dying to know when he will be in my arms.
feeling a little anxious about the labor.
not dilated at all as of last monday. we will cross our fingers for some progress this monday!
been feeling super crampy the last few days. hopefully something is happening!
had 2 really great showers the last couple weeks. no pictures. you would think i didn't have a camera or a phone with a camera on it with me.
---a BIG thank you to ammie for having a shower at her house, my dad for cooking again and my mama for always helping! ammie's shower was so great! she is the best! we got so many great things, thank you to those that came. we feel so lucky to have you in our lives.
and
--- to my ward. people came that i didn't even know. seriously, everyone made me feel so special, like we were bffs from way back. thanks so much! we also got lots of goodies, and we are very grateful!
my little matthew has been super clingly lately. i think he knows it won't be just us 2 for much longer. i will miss him on my 3 weeks off. i am not sure i will be able to handle 3 weeks. he calls the baby beckett, i love it. i never told him that was the babie's name, we still aren't sure, he just chose beckett over the other 2.
the babe has been moving lots lately. i can tell he has no where to go, it seems he just moves his bum from side to side!
why does it seem everyone else is have their babes 2 weeks early lately?
i am losing my brain lately.
every night i dream about what he will look like. i wonder if he will take after his daddy. or maybe look a little like me. i doubt he will have hair, and most likely he will have his daddy's nose. i can't wait to see how big he will be and to see his little toes!
i walk into his room and it almost seems unreal that a baby will be sleeping in that crib any day. most days you can find j in the rocking chair just lounging or studying, it melts my heart. i can't wait to see him rocking his little boy. he is going to be such a good daddy.
we are seriously so so excited that it is getting so close. cross your fingers it won't be much longer. maybe the next blog will have a picture of him!
@ 37, 38 and 39
the last few weeks have seemed longer then all 39 combined. i am seriously dying to know when he will be in my arms.
feeling a little anxious about the labor.
not dilated at all as of last monday. we will cross our fingers for some progress this monday!
been feeling super crampy the last few days. hopefully something is happening!
had 2 really great showers the last couple weeks. no pictures. you would think i didn't have a camera or a phone with a camera on it with me.
---a BIG thank you to ammie for having a shower at her house, my dad for cooking again and my mama for always helping! ammie's shower was so great! she is the best! we got so many great things, thank you to those that came. we feel so lucky to have you in our lives.
and
--- to my ward. people came that i didn't even know. seriously, everyone made me feel so special, like we were bffs from way back. thanks so much! we also got lots of goodies, and we are very grateful!
my little matthew has been super clingly lately. i think he knows it won't be just us 2 for much longer. i will miss him on my 3 weeks off. i am not sure i will be able to handle 3 weeks. he calls the baby beckett, i love it. i never told him that was the babie's name, we still aren't sure, he just chose beckett over the other 2.
the babe has been moving lots lately. i can tell he has no where to go, it seems he just moves his bum from side to side!
why does it seem everyone else is have their babes 2 weeks early lately?
i am losing my brain lately.
every night i dream about what he will look like. i wonder if he will take after his daddy. or maybe look a little like me. i doubt he will have hair, and most likely he will have his daddy's nose. i can't wait to see how big he will be and to see his little toes!
i walk into his room and it almost seems unreal that a baby will be sleeping in that crib any day. most days you can find j in the rocking chair just lounging or studying, it melts my heart. i can't wait to see him rocking his little boy. he is going to be such a good daddy.
we are seriously so so excited that it is getting so close. cross your fingers it won't be much longer. maybe the next blog will have a picture of him!
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