1, 2 and 3 months.

beckett has been so much fun to have around all the time! we love love him and can't imagine our lives without him.

@ 3 months.
- wears size 3 diapers and 6-9 months clothes
- eats rice cereal in his bottle in the morning and right before bed.
- drinks about 5-6 oz.
- weighs about 16 lbs!
- is a super happy baby!
- wants to be up right, doesn't love to be cradled.
- wakes up 2-3 times a night.
- his car seat is already on the biggest setting..
- got his first owie. my water bottle fell out of my bag and scratched his face. :(
- sleeps best on his side.
- likes to hold his binky.
- likes to suck his fingers or thumb while sucking his binky!
- we are still unsure about the color of his eyes. they change everyday.

@ 2 months.
- started laughing! cutest laugh i've ever heard!
- wearing 6 month clothes and size 2 diapers.
- eats like crazy!
- wakes up 3-4 times a night.
- weighs 13 lbs. 75th percentile, 21 1/2 inches long 50th percentile, can't remember how big his head was but do remember it was also in the 50th percentile.
- reacted really well to his shots. it was so sad to watch.
- loves music!
- found his hands, loves to suck his thumb, fist or fingers.
-loves matthew!
- makes the saddest, sad face.

 

 

@ 1 month.
- recognizes mama and daddy!
- started smiling! melts my heart.
- wears size one diapers, I think he wore newborns for 4 days!
- wearing newborn or 3 month clothes.
- wakes up 3-5 times a night. not a good sleeper during the day or night.
- eats 3-4 oz. at a time.
- a really good eater. good with a bottle and good with mama. never had a problem with either.
- loves the bath!!
- poops all the time!

 

 

first few weeks home.

 

 

it was so nice to get back to our house and introduce becks to his home.

 

 

 

in the hospital we found out we would be making a stop at the dr's office

to check b's billi levels the day after we left.

they pricked his heel to check his levels and it broke our hearts.

the billi was high so we had to order lights to our house.



 

3 days old and he had to be on the lights for 24 hours. it was so hard. i just

wanted to cuddle him. luckly it was only one night and we didn't have to

go to the hospital for stronger lights.

when we went back to the dr his levels were lower and they never went back up.

i never knew how dangerous it is for babies to have high billi levels.

 

beckett loves to suck. he sucks his thumb, fingers, fist and binki. he leaves marks in his cheeks from sucking his binki so hard. while he was in my belly

there was a lot of a constant motion feeling and i always thought maybe

he was sucking his thumb, i think i was right! his daddy was a major thumb sucker.

 

 

being a mom is wonderful. it is the best feeling i have ever felt.

but why does no one tell you how crazy you are for the first 6 or so weeks.

i cried like crazy, like twice a day. i cried for no reason, i could cry on the spot.

i am sure j was a little worried i was never going to come out of it. but he was so good to me.

never made me feel like the nut i was.

AND... there should be a class to prepare you on the pain you know where you feel for those 6 or so weeks. thank goodness for those big ice packs and the spray bottle.

 

b had a bad rash like day 4. i felt like the worst mom in the world.

we figured out it was the diapers we were using.

for a few days i let him air out a few times!

 

BYU vs. UTAH game.

the first night we left him. it was so hard for us. we left the game early!

he is just precious and this is my favorite newborn outfit.

it is magnetic! so convenient !

 



 

so sleepy. don't be fooled he most likely woke up 10 minutes after her fell asleep!

he has never been the best sleeper!

 

and these two together brings pure joy to my soul.

 

j took these pictures at the day break dock. and i love them.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

the hospital stay.

 

i am so far behind.
but i am determined to get caught up.

going through pictures tonight brought so much emotion back to my heart. going into labor, feeling contractions and giving birth is hard work. so worth it, but hard work. i am so glad we were able to  capture so many pictures so it would be easier for me to remember such an important day. sometimes i feel like bagging the blog and then i look back at posts of the past and love reading how i felt at different times in my life.

labor. delivery. seeing my boy for the first time.
j was such a great support during my long labor, love him. here are just a few pictures i maybe should have added to my last post.

walking the halls to help with progressing!

 

epidural please!

 

don't i look lovely? how do girls look so pretty while in labor? even after the epidural i still hated the way i was feeling! don't get me wrong i would never not get and epidural, but its

not like i felt good.

and he is here! i wish there was a way a mama could

describe the love for her child. these pictures make me tear up a bit. i felt so happy seeing him for the first time. the only reason i wish maybe i had someone else in the room

with j and me would be to get a picture of my baby and me right when they put him on my chest for

the first time.

what is my face doing. it looks like i am mad or something. don't worry i am not! this is

me and my beckett after the nicu team cleared his breathing. we

were analyzing each other!

oh love his face!

 

once beckett was born, we stayed in l & d for the next hour or so and then they moved us up to our room. most of our stay was filled with visitors and thanks to my parents some yummy food! i wouldn't say i loved the hospital but it was nice to have nothing else on my mind other then my sweet new baby and jordan. no house work or yard work or dog work. i didn't love that the nurse on duty came in so often during the night or that on the recovery floor nurses weren't as nice as my fav. nurse laura on the l & d floor or that poor jordan had to sleep on a chair. we decided to keep beckett with us 24 hours instead of letting him go to the nursery and i am glad we did!

we loved loved all of our visitors. i was no good at taking pictures of all of them. so sad.


 mr. b one night. i loved having him with us.


beckett's first bath.
i still am bitter about this.
so... beckett came out pretty covered in gunk. like most new babies! he needed a bath. i think i asked when he could have one 20 minutes after he cam out, that was the first time the nurse told me as soon as we get upstairs. when we were upstairs i asked again. and again. and again. the first nurse told me it was shift change so when the next nurse gets settled. then that nurse told me things were crazy. so i kept asking and finally around 10pm we got to go to the nursery and bathe him. jordan, despite being a little afraid, did such a wonderful job. the only thing that came out of waiting so long was that my legs weren't numb anymore so i got to go too!





most nights i didn't get much sleep. between the nurses and feeding b there wasn't much time for sleep. inbetween those, it seemed to be the only time i had with my own thoughts. i couldn't believe this baby was mine, I still have a hard time wrapping my head around the "i made this baby" thing. it wasn't me and jordan anymore. it was the 3 of us and my heart was and still is loving the idea of our little family. i wish i could put into words the way beckett made me feel the day he was born, a feeling i know will be met by nothing else.



at about 20 weeks i had a dream that we named our baby luis. my dad and brother's middle name. jordan didn't love it so i thought maybe we could use it as a middle name. with each of our favorite names we decided on a middle name. with beckett it was luis. like i have said before the second i saw beckett he was beckett luis. well, sometime during our time at the hospital i noticed becks had a little hole in his ear just like my dad. it was like he was always meant to be a luis!!




the day we were going home. wednesday august 29th.
we woke up early so that beckett could get a little sponge bath in before all the days events. one nurse came to do a hearing test. one to prick his heal to check his billirubin levels. and a dr. to circumcise him. hard day for mr. b. i made jordan go with beckett to get circumcised. while they were gone a nurse came in to tell me that his billi levels were high and we needed make a follow up appointment with our pediatrician. i was not too happy about this. blame the hormones. then, j comes back with my out of it baby and tells me that they found a cyst on beckett's penis. i. lost. it! how could this be happening to my brand new baby. i couldn't stop crying. again, hormones. they told us to follow up with his pediatrician, it might go away or it might require further attention. i couldn't even think rational about this, i was a wreck. turns out 2 days later the cyst was gone. but still. after me and beckett were cleared we were off! we were nervous wrecks driving home. we didn't even take the freeway!

Beckett's birth story.

the "birth" day of my baby boy. august 27th 2012.

it all started around 8:30 sunday night. i started feeling contractions, that really hurt. i swear immediately they were 3-5 minutes apart. i tried to continue what i was doing because there was no way i was in labor, or so i thought. remember i wasn't dilated at all yet, at least at my last appointment. j and i decided we would try and go to bed around 10, but i couldn't sleep. contractions continued still being mostly 3-5 minutes apart, with one that would sneak in around 7 minutes later. it seemed like they were coming every 25 seconds and i was dying! i couldn't lay down, stand up, sit down... i couldn't really do anything that made me a little more comfortable. about 1 am i lost my mucus plug. decided to try a bath, that didn't help. so i moaned and groaned to jordan and i wasn't sure how i was going to go on any longer. :) at 2:30 jordan said "i think we should go" so we loaded our stuff up and we were off to the hospital. as we were driving i told jordan I AM GETTING AN EPIDURAL! as i thought to my self, wow meghan, you are a big giant wuss. you aren't even to the hospital yet! seriously, those women who go natural are like wonder woman. i thought i was going to die. literally. anyway, we get to the hospital, they check me and i am only at 1 1/2. what? i have to make it to a 10? so they tell me that i need to go walk around for an hour. an hour later i am at a 2 1/2. go walk another hour, they say. walking sucks! i felt like i had to pee every 20 seconds. after walking for the next hour its around 5:30 am, we head back to the nurse and she checks me. now a 3 1/2 she decided that i have progressed enough to be admitted. the second i was in my room i asked when i could get an epidural. the nurse says "well we have to get your blood work back from the lab and the doc has a c-section in an hour so hopefully the blood work will make it back before then." i couldn't imagine going more then another hour! luckily 15 minutes later the doc walked in! i was so nervous. little did i know the local anesthetic  would hurt the most. it did feel a little weird when then inserted the little tube, but nothing like i expected. soon after i was feeling good. good meaning i now thought giving birth was actually a possibility! i could still move my legs but wasn't in pain. my ob doc came in at 8 broke my water and started poticin. i was still at a 31/2. around 11 i started to get really uncomfortable, i pushed the button for some more meds but didn't really get any relief. the epidural doc. came back and dosed me up with some more good stuff! they also put in an intrauterine monitor around this time because they needed to monitor the strength of my contractions better, the baby's heart beat would drop with each contraction. they made this seem like no big deal, all the while i am freaking out.  at 12 i was suddenly at a 6! YES! my legs were so numb, they each felt like they were 500 lbs. and i now couldn't move them at all. but no pain! around 2 i started getting really uncomfortable again. i started puking and when j told the nurse she said "thats a sign she is ready!" she came into check me and i was at a 10! she left to go call my dr. while she was gone i kept telling jordan that this baby was coming. i felt so much pressure, it was nuts! finally she came back! she wanted to do some practice pushes once we tried one, we couldn't do anymore. the baby was right there!! the dr. came in, he thought we would be pushing forever. once he saw how good of a pusher i was, he let us know it would be within a matter of minutes! pushing is hard work and i can't imagine pushing for hours. in the middle i was told i was going to tear so he decided to cut me instead. gross. although i couldn't feel him doing that, i could hear it. sorry, if that is so sick but that is the truth and i really don't want to forget the details!  not that i would ever forget that sound. a few pushes later and my baby was on my chest. he was born at 3:02 pm. the feelings i felt instantly were and still are indescribable. i knew the second i saw him that his name was beckett. we didn't talk names right at that moment but i knew. after a second on my chest, they noticed that when he would breath, he had a little growl so they called in the nicu to suck him out and monitor him. we found out the cord was wrapped around twice. we are unsure if that had anything to do with his breathing, but they made it seem like no big deal.  it was so hard to see my baby across the room and all i could do was lay there. by the time i was all stitched up and the after birth was all out, beckett was good to go! he was 8 lbs 6 oz, i remember when i first saw him i couldn't believe how big he was! i was so happy. i couldn't believe that me and jordan made him and that he was ours. i have loved jordan for along time, but at that moment i loved him more then ever. we had a different kind of connection now and i could feel it so strong. after spending some quality time just the 3 of us. our families came in to meet b. we were moved up to our room, my parents brought dinner. did i mention how starving i was? ice chips don't really do anything for you! beckett finally got his first bath around 10 pm. thats a whole other story. i think i am still bugged we had to wait so long! after everyone left, it was so nice to talk to j about the day and how special our new little family was.

1. getting all measured and sucked out.

2. holding his daddy's finger.

3. my favorite two boys! love them with my whole heart.