first few weeks home.

 

 

it was so nice to get back to our house and introduce becks to his home.

 

 

 

in the hospital we found out we would be making a stop at the dr's office

to check b's billi levels the day after we left.

they pricked his heel to check his levels and it broke our hearts.

the billi was high so we had to order lights to our house.



 

3 days old and he had to be on the lights for 24 hours. it was so hard. i just

wanted to cuddle him. luckly it was only one night and we didn't have to

go to the hospital for stronger lights.

when we went back to the dr his levels were lower and they never went back up.

i never knew how dangerous it is for babies to have high billi levels.

 

beckett loves to suck. he sucks his thumb, fingers, fist and binki. he leaves marks in his cheeks from sucking his binki so hard. while he was in my belly

there was a lot of a constant motion feeling and i always thought maybe

he was sucking his thumb, i think i was right! his daddy was a major thumb sucker.

 

 

being a mom is wonderful. it is the best feeling i have ever felt.

but why does no one tell you how crazy you are for the first 6 or so weeks.

i cried like crazy, like twice a day. i cried for no reason, i could cry on the spot.

i am sure j was a little worried i was never going to come out of it. but he was so good to me.

never made me feel like the nut i was.

AND... there should be a class to prepare you on the pain you know where you feel for those 6 or so weeks. thank goodness for those big ice packs and the spray bottle.

 

b had a bad rash like day 4. i felt like the worst mom in the world.

we figured out it was the diapers we were using.

for a few days i let him air out a few times!

 

BYU vs. UTAH game.

the first night we left him. it was so hard for us. we left the game early!

he is just precious and this is my favorite newborn outfit.

it is magnetic! so convenient !

 



 

so sleepy. don't be fooled he most likely woke up 10 minutes after her fell asleep!

he has never been the best sleeper!

 

and these two together brings pure joy to my soul.

 

j took these pictures at the day break dock. and i love them.