a week in the life...

our week.

 

reason #670 i don't get ready!

 me and j have been playing settlers more and more.. 

he's been winning, which is weird!

 

sometimes i get crazy and take all 3 kids to costco. 

people are so rude. why do they care if i am dragging, 3 kids,

2 carts and all the crap i need to buy?

 

 

3 stinky boys are lots of work to give baths! 

its a love/ hate relationship... i love them to be clean 

and smelling fresh but i hate that its such a chore getting them out 

and usually one of them is crying while i am dressing the others!

 

oh these two! i sure love them!

me and j both go to work at the same time now and i love it.

 

 

we made a LAST second decision to go with my parents to 

watch mariah play. i love seeing her and i love watching her play.

but it always seems like we get snowed in

when we try to come home. 

i am a serious anxiety attach when it comes to driving in the snow.

 

  

and finally i launched my new biz. 

its going to be big time!!!

here we go again

lets try this again. i miss looking back at my blogs and remembering that time in my life. rather than try to go back and update the past, i am going to start fresh! here's a quick update on our lives as of now.

jordan.
-works at a state farm office and loves it!
-loves it so much, is now in the process of getting his own office.
-plays indoor soccer once a week.
-enjoying our cousin's gym JMP 4 days a week.
-teaches b how to hit with a bat.
-started to run again. he took a little break from running.
-got a nook for christmas and is remembering how much he loves to read.
-going to be 30 this year! what? we have known each other for 16 years. sick.

meghan.
-still a nanny, now to 2 boys.
-grateful to be able to be home with becks while making some money.
-loving our new treadmill!
-wants another baby.
-so proud of j for his hard work and can't wait for him to have his own office!
-trying to eat a little better and hating it! i LOVE food. like i am surprised im not 300lbs. no joke.

beckett.
-THE cutest boy ever.
-talking so so much. new words everyday.
-loves anything that has to do with a ball. basketball, baseball, soccer, football.
-LOVES food like his mama. he is such a good eater.
-has 8 teeth, with 4 more on their way!
-still is the WORST sleeper. wakes up 3 or 4 or 12 times a night.
-takes 1 nap everyday.
-still likes his binki and has a bottle a bed time. i just can't seem to even think about chucking them. 
-weighs almost 30 lbs. he's pretty solid!
-loves barney and thomas.
-gma and gpa duran are probably his favorite people. more so than his own parents.
-loving books! 
-growing up so fast. STOP IT!

9

my baby is growing up so fast. b's little personality is coming right out. oh how i love him!

beckett @ 9 months.

- crawls like a mad man and love it!
- loves food. all food. like his mama.
- waves.
- gives kisses. love his kisses!
- wears size 4 diapers and still in 24 months or 2 T. i am pretty sure this size is going to fit him for a while. his waste is starting to thin out from all the crawling and is growing into the length.
- LOVES matthew. still.
- has stranger danger to the max.
- started swimming lessons.
- loves being outside.
- is stubborn. wonder who he gets that from? :)
- loves water!
 - still HATES his carseat
- and still doesn't sleep.

being a mother.

if there is one thing i have known most of my life for sure, its that i wanted to be a mom. i can remember holding other people's babes and never wanting to let anyone else have a turn. i remember playing house with baby dolls. i remember always thinking of what i would name my babies.

when j and i started trying for a babe i wanted the immediate satisfaction of being pregnant. and really looking back now i almost had that. we only tried for one month. the first month we were preg. i can't imagine it being any other way. i felt like that was the longest month of my life. we were really lucky.

from the moment i knew all my dreams were coming true i had an immediate sense of protection for my unborn child. at 5 weeks along i fell down the stairs, it was Christmas eve, i honestly thought i was going to miscarry. hearing the heartbeat for the first time was simply amazing. when i found out he was a he, it was almost like i already knew that. after i started feeling him move, i kept myself up at night when i thought i couldn't feel him kick. i dreamt about him so often it was like i knew what he would look like.

when he finally arrived, the second i saw him i knew he was beckett, the baby of my dreams. that immediate connection, that feeling of perfect love is only known by moms. this baby just had my whole heart and my whole life and he was only seconds old. there was nothing that i wouldn't do for him. to protect him. to make him happy. all i wanted to do was hold him. i wanted the whole world to see the most perfect boy.

bringing b home was almost unreal. i was an emotional mess. i wanted him to know how much i loved him. how much i wanted his life to be perfect. for no one to hurt him, ever. i wanted everyone to know my feelings toward this baby. i almost felt out of control. like i didn't know what i was doing. like i had never cared for  a baby before. i needed him back in my belly where nothing and no one could hurt him. and he was only mine.

every thing i do i have him in mind. i never knew this sort of love existed. i didn't know i would or could be so consumed with this little human. i wish someone could have prepared me for this. because sometimes i have a hard time having "me" time. sometimes i have a hard time feeling like i am a good mom. and most of the time i don't feel like i have enough time in the day. most days i feel like my house is messy, i didn't get a workout in. i should have spent more time just playing and letting the little things go.

here we are and my boy is 9 months old. he can crawl. he can wave and give high five. what? why is time going so fast? there are times that i think i want another baby. then, i think how on earth can anyone ever compare to my beckett.

i probably never will figure out how to balance my life. but i hope that b knows that his mama loves him and always will. my life is so much better with him in it. nothing makes me more happy then to see beckett smile. being a mom is hard work but i wouldn't change it for anything!

eight months. 4.27.13

mr. b @ 8 months.

still getting 2 more teeth. not sure what the hold up is!
got so so sick. like rsv kind of sick. saddest days of my life.
still a mamas boy.
LOVES the dogs. boston is his guard dog.
started making the "ba" sound.
starting to get the idea that he could move on his own. moves better backwards.
LOVES his binki.
still wearing size 4 diapers and 18-24 month clothes.
LOVES being outside.
LOVES playing catch!
found his tongue
matthew is still his favorite person!!
started pulling himself up on his crib. the crib is now on its lowest level.
mostly fed from a bottle.
LOVES playing with matthew on the floor.
found out another baby boy will be joining our entourage! (no I am not preg. mattews mom is having a babe!)

seven months 3.27.13

beckett @ 7 months.

- b started yelling!
- is a total mama's boy.
- celebrated easter.
- fist time in laguna!
- loves those baby food squirty things.
- sits up mostly on his own. gets a little distracted, and gets wobbly!
- seriously loves matthew.
- seems to be getting 2 more teeth.
-went to the beach for the first time!
- claps! yay and patty cake.

- saw uncle marko win the big west championship and play in the ncaa tourney!

i canNOT believe my baby is 6 months old. don't worry he is almost 7 now that I am getting around to posting this!

@ 6 months old.

-has gone back to waking up a ton.
-loves his mama!
-rolls and rolls all over! has rolled over for a few months but nothing like this.
-getting so strong. wants to hold his head up at all times.
-LOVES his bink. loves to suck on it or play with it.
- so SPOILED!!
-likes looking at the doggies.
- loves matthew. matthew is so good with him.
-still hates the car.
-starting to have "stranger danger"
-size 4 diapers 18-24 month clothes.
- likes to grab, play and eat his toes.
- grabs my face and leans in with an open mouth! i like to think he is giving me kisses!!
- flew on his first airplane and met his uncle marko and auntie jordi!
- got a bad cold. so sad.
- at first glance his eyes look brown but if you look close they are brown in the middle and dark blue around the edges.
- messes around while nursing!
- got his first 2 teeth.




baby b is the light in our lives. he makes us so happy. becks is such a sweet, good baby. he doesn't sleep very much day or night, but is rarely grumpy. his smile is my favorite thing in the world. he makes me happy! i love him.