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@ 24 weeks.

i am so tired. i can't sleep. i think about the craziest things all night, i can't get comfy and when i finally go to sleep, 5 minutes later i have to pee.

matthew (the babe i nanny) now knows where the baby is and gives him kisses. cutest ever.

went to st. george for girls weekend, got no sleep and a sun burn. my skin no longer tans like it used to. why? it better go back to normal after this boy is born.

told jordan i wanted to name the baby luis, (like i had a dream that he was luis and i really love it)  he HATES it... and i am so sad. beckitt is probably #1 right now with jordan.

feeling/seeing the baby move is amazing. i wish he moved all day, when he stops it makes me feel panicky.

went to the dr. this week. and gained 4 lbs since last appointment. i feel much better about 4 compared to 7.

i have been trying to imagine what he is going to look like a lot lately, secretly i hope he looks just like his daddy and not at all like his mama.  tall, dark and handsome, sounds good to me!

somedays i feel like august might never come and other days i feel like i have so much to do and the baby is going to be here any second.

i am so grumpy. pretty much with everyone. sorry. at least i admit it.

i am dying for amy to have baby jovie so i can just hold a baby. maybe it will help!?

and i want the crib i ordered like 2 weeks ago to be on my door step today.

i am super anxious about this thing called labor lately and the fact that they have to push on my belly to get the remaining blood and gunk out for 24 hours after words. AHHHH!

i am debating whether or not to get an epidural. it has nothing to do with me thinking the medicine used to numb my bottom half is bad for the baby. i just want to see what it feels like. i hear its like your body is on fire! not that, that sounds in any way appealing. i just want to do it, and say that i did. (kinda like why i ran a marathon.) however, what if it hurts so bad i just give up and tell them that they are going to have to cut the baby out?! dramatic. and even if i go natural, i will NOT be taking any kind of natural birthing classes. i find it hard to imagine "finding my focal point" will help me. also, music really does nothing for me so i probably wont find a song that calms me. i will probably just be yelling the whole time. on the other hand it might be nice to enjoy giving birth to my first born and help jordan enjoy the experience a little more by just getting the huge needle jammed in my back. dilate to a 10 and feel "pressure" down there. any advice?

i still take no pictures. i look big and giant in the ones i attempt and have no desire to share those on here. i would then have to look at them and feel embarrassed that i may or may not eat anything and everything times 5.

we found the car seat/stroller combo last night and i am in love.

the room on the other hand has come to a halt. i painted the walls and baseboards like 2 or 3 weeks ago and all that is remaining is the window and closet trim but i can't bring myself to do it.

best news of the week..... i planted my flower gardens yesterday. i seriously love how they turned out. pictures to come! ha... hard to believe i know, i think i have been promising pictures for 6 weeks now of my belly, the bathroom remodel and the babies room. it will all come.

here is to being 25 weeks today. only 15 to go!