long, over due update.

AHHH. i just had this whole post done. and it deleted! why?????

lets get caught up.



BECKETT.

b is now almost 2 1/2. its nuts how fast they grow. he is such a good boy, with a TON of energy.
he loves!
-his binki. i am not even attempting to take it away. he might be 13 with a bink!
-to have his mama sleep in his bed. as we all know, he has NEVER been a good sleeper. i know 1/2 of it is totally my fault but the other 1/2 is he HATES sleep. i try to have lights out tv off by 10 and then usually he falls asleep within the next hour. he is always up around 8:30 and most of the time wakes up around 3 am soaking wet with pee. he drinks a ton before bed, but i just feel too bad telling me he can't have a drink. so we wash sheets everyday!
-captain america and iron man. his new obsession. he still loves baseball and most days we are either playing avengers or baseball or both together!
-he LOVES to be outside. luckily it was 80 yesterday!
-he loves loves loves his grandma and grandpa. we miss them.

we attempted potty training. it was a little much for this prego, emotional mom. so i gave up. we will try again later.

CHRISTMAS 2014.
- grandma grandpa yiya and ammie came down. we loved it!
-it didn't feel like christmas. it wasn't very cold and there was NO snow.
-we missed going to all of our other parties.
-we had delicious food! chili verde for breakfast and a roast for dinner!
-we were spoiled rotten of course!

MY BOYS!
-i love them.
- they are the cutest!

lights at the mesa temple.

 our new fave. activity. the tramp park. b loved it and so did jordan!

                                                                                                                                                                         ARIZONA.

- we moved.

-i want to move back.

-the weather is really beautiful. I LOVE THE WEATHER!

-we bought a nice, new house.  that flooded when it rained.

-jordan's office opened jan 1st and he ate chicken wings that night! (he hasn't eaten meat in like 3 or 4 years.)

-did i mention the weather?

heres a few pics of our house. 

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 here is when if flooded. it is now fixed!

BABY BOY #2!

-is due in 2 weeks. PLEASE COME EARLY!

-his ventricle is in the normal range! long story short, i am not sure what happened. when i left utah the dr went as far as telling me i should stay in utah. at my first appointment here, dr said ventricle was not enlarged. 

-is nameless. i still love jakoby and jameson. jordan loves brixton. we shall see when he is born. 

test results.

just a quick update on this babe in my belly!

-the test results came back negative!
-no chromosomal disorders and no infections.
-he could still be at risk for a spinal disorder. the dr thinks this is unlikely due to no evidence in the ultrasounds.
-we will now monitor the ventricle every few weeks to make sure it doesn't get bigger. bigger would require the shunt.


we are very relieved with these results! we go back for our next ultrasound in 3 weeks. we will keep you informed!

update on baby #2

here is an update on the babe in my belly.

we went back for another ultrasound. i was just shy of 23 weeks. the baby's ventricle in his brain has gotten bigger. i was in shock. for the whole 2 weeks between ultrasounds i really thought everything was going to be fine. our appointment went something like this... they called us back 40 minutes after our scheduled time.  ultrasound tech and student had to do the whole ultrasound over again and take new measurements of the baby. the tech said "oh, it looks good" right around the time she was looking at the baby's brain. the dr came in. talked to us for 2 hours about what could be causing the enlarged ventricle. i tried so so hard not to have a meltdown. and failed. the dr then did the ultrasound all over again. we discussed what tests to do. went upstairs to do testing. after what seemed like all day, we have no for sure answers. now we wait 5-10 business days.

what could be causing the enlarged ventricle.
-NOTHING, the left side could just be bigger and it will heal itself.
-the ventricle may just not be draining properly. if it continues to get bigger they would need to place a shunt in his brain to drain the fluid. the surgery would take place in utero. the shunt would then stay in the rest of his life, maybe needing to be replaced as he grows maybe not.
-an INFECTION. the baby may have gotten an infection that i had. the infection being one that i didn't even know about. the infection could have been in my body before i was pregnant or i could have had it at any time while i have been preg.
-a SPINAL DEFECT. i don't have a ton of info on what this could be. when they look at his spine in the ultrasound, it looks good.
-TRISOMY 21 aka down syndrome.
-TRISOMY 13: severe intellectual disability and physical abnormalities. most babies don't make it past their 1st birthday.
-TRISOMY 18: due to the presence of several life threatening medical issues most babies die before birth or within their first month. 10% make it past their first birthday, these children usually have severe intellectual disability.

the tests we took will tell us IF he has an infection or IF he has a chromosomal disorder (13-21). the tests will not tell us which chromosomal disorder he has if that test comes back positive. if positive we would have to do an amnio to find out exact disorder. i am unsure what the treatment is if he has an infection.  regardless of what the tests show he may or may not need a shunt. depends solely on how big the ventricle gets. if i understood correctly there is not a test to show a spinal defect.

i have been a pretty big mess since i was told what the possibilities are. i am hoping to get the results back this week. i can't believe how drastic the causes are, from nothing to something so serious. i am ready for some answers, as you can imagine.

Beckett turns 2!

my baby is quickly turning into a big boy. i love it but at the same time i hate it.

he learns something new everyday. i love hearing him say new things or put more and more words together. he has quite the personality, he's even a bit naughty sometimes. he knows what he wants and how to get it.

we had a little party for him the weekend before his birthday. it was circus theme, i spent tons of time and money creating the perfect out door party... and it RAINED. i always thought his august birthday would be so fun because we could always do something outside, well its rained two years in a row.
his party was still a success and of course he was spoiled rotten!

 i didn't take the best pictures. i wish i would have gotten some better ones of our family and friends. we were so lucky to even have markus and jordi and mariah and ty here for the weekend! and i could have sworn i took some of the decor/games/treats. oh well, it was a blast celebrating by boy!


on his actual birthday we went to a few of his favorite places. too bad jordan was in az. most of the day it was just me and b. we went to lunch and the farm. he loves the farm. he can just run wild, just what he likes. after the farm and a nap we met up with grandma and grandpa duran to go to the bees game and dinner. my child has an obsession for baseball! (if you didn't know!) he LOVED the baseball game. we sat in our seats most of the game and then headed to the grass to play catch and roll down the hill!

 b feeding the ducks at the farm. seriously, unreal 

how they come up to you and basically eat out of your hand. 

it scared me so much i told him he could only 

do it with grandma.

 

 happiest 2nd birthday becks. i love you so much and am so lucky i get to be your mom!

 

baby boy #2

i know i say this all the time... but i wish i was better at keeping this thing up to date.


i have yet to write anything about baby #2 and i am 21 weeks prego!
here is the breakdown.

-we decided we would start trying when Beckett turned 1.

-i just assumed we would get pregnant the first month we tried because that is how it worked with b.

-after about 6 months of negative tests i was bummed. i was over it.

-that 7th and 8th month i stopped counting the days. i stopped stressing.

- AND well month 8th the test was POSITIVE!

looking back i know it all happened for a reason. i didn't know it then but quickly realized after finally seeing that positive test!

-baby boy #2 made me very sick. (sicker than with beckett)

(this pic was at 12 weeks. we couldn't hear a heartbeat on the doppler 

so we got another ultrasound)

-i barfed for 17 straight weeks. even on meds. sometimes i was so sick i couldn't even get out of bed.

-i still have some sickness in the morning but nothing to complain about.

-i am still taking my unisom/vitamin b6 mix. i've tried and tried to eliminate it but i can't. it really helps!

-i am so tired. like at 1 i really need a nap!

-we found out he was a boy at 14 weeks. i knew it, and i am pretty sure jordan knew too!

-i started to feel him around 19 weeks, but just a little. it felt like he was facing a different way.

-at 21 weeks we went in for our big ultrasound. it was confirmed he was a boy. it was so so fun seeing him move around. it was confirmed that he is facing my back and that is why i feel him differently. we also found out he as a enlarged ventricle in his brain. i hated hearing something could be wrong. we find out more info next week. everything could be totally fine.

-we have not decided on a name. probably won't until we see him. here is what we like right now. i need no feed back. not very many people liked the name beckett and it kind of hurt my feelings. but when i saw b i knew that was his name. (we went into delivery with 2 we really liked.) so i like...
Jakoby (i know NO one likes it. i don't care what you think!) jameson (the other name we loved when preg with b.) bryant (jordan says no way!) camden (too popular? i am thinking yes!)

 

 (this is b looking at the ultrasound pictures)

-i am not really sure what b thinks. i tell him he is going to have a brother but he keeps telling me its not a brother its a baby. ha! i tell him there is a baby in my belly and he looks at me like "yeah, ok mom!" i know it will be an adjustment but he will be a great big brother. he really loves babies.

my b as of late.

beckett is going to be 2 in less than a month. time is going way to fast. i love the stage he is in, here are somethings about him.

-he is OBSESSED with baseball! he can throw like a champ and hit like an allstar. and i am not just saying it because i am his mom. he is really advanced for his age. he has learned to slide, say strike one, two and three. most days he says "hit with me mom" or "pitch to me" ALL day long! grandma bought him a helmet and he takes it everywhere, even to bed!

-he STILL is a terrible sleeper. he sleeps in my bed every night. and he goes to bed around 11pm every night. one day, right?

-he LOVES LOVES LOVES barney. he really loves the circus one right now! he marches around saying "march to the music" and "hut 2, 3, 4" its the cutest!!

-we ALWAYS listen to kids songs in the car. he's really good at singing. a few songs he sings right now..
ABC's
itsy bitsy spider
down by the station
down on grandpa's farm
wheels on the bus

-in the last couple of days he started wanting to put his own socks on. he runs to his drawer and grabs the socks. he has yet to get one sock on his foot but its fun anyway!

-he REALLY likes tractors and cows. he is always looking for some while we are driving!

-he has started watching movies for longer than 10 seconds. a few favs at the moment are...
shrek
nemo
dispicable me
monster's inc.

-his FAVORITE place to be is outside. he loves playing, riding bikes and going to the pool.

-he is such a GREAT eater. he eats everything!

oh how i love him. he is the light of my days. and i wouldn't change one thing about him!

beckett's favorite things

before i forget i want to record some of b's favorite things.

WORDS.
no
ball
mom
dad
maaamaw (grandma)
dattaw (grandpa)
am (ammie)
dog
yaygs (legs) he loves me to rub his legs.
hold you
fruit snacks.... maybe his fave of all time!
shot, swish (basketball)
hello
orange, blue, pink, brown, white, green, yellow.... he's learning his colors
coke (we pull into mcdonalds and he says mom cote, clearly i go to mcdonalds too often!)
outside
tracks
hot
bed
tay (ok)
bike
flowers
milt (milk)
tinty (binki)
poop
hhhhiiii!!
food
squeeze
airplanes
man


THINGS TO DO
play outside
shoot hoops
play hide and seek
run and crash into the chair and say touchdown
play with the tablet or matthews ipad
play with mom and dad's phone (watch things on youtube)
jump off the stairs
read books
kick balls
throw a ball to himself and hit it with a bat
build blocks
tracks (either build train tracks or play with the car toy)
dance to music
sing.... wheels on the bus, itsy bitsy spider




MOVIES AND SHOWS
nemo
cars
barney
thomas

FOOD
who am i kidding.... he likes all food!